"Because it's expected. Because I - " He cuts himself off, pulling his hand away from Arashi to hug himself. "I get upset when you get mad 'cause I expect that. I expect it to follow shouting. When I said you reminded me of Brisbane, it ain't - it ain't you. It was never you. It's him. I look for him in other people."

His grip on his arms tighten. His nails are digging into his skin. "Leander wasn't anything like him, I kept testing him to be sure. But he couldn't stop me from hurting him, not like Micah could."